- I learned that as depressed as I have been, I still have a strong will to survive - and that my fight or flight instincts will still overcome my desire to keep the peace.
- I learned that my two year old is exceptionally good at hiding work badges especially the ones you have to pay to replace.
- I learned that my little one sleeps really, really well at 5 am in the morning on a mattress on the floor - perhaps the problem at 7 pm, 8 pm and 9 pm is that I keep trying to get him to sleep in a bed?
- I learned that I'm still deeply touched by the tragedy and loss of lives in Katrina and Iraq; and even the tsunami last year - but somehow the Pakistan earthquake victims, not as much. Is it just that we can only bear so much grief at a time? I mean whole schools were virtually destroyed where only a couple of children out of a whole classroom might have survived, and yet, I'm more angered by a headline "It comes in like a tsunami" seems like a very disrespectful way to talk about computer junk when it took so many lives last year. Though I am thankful that several articles on the net are covering a couple of the lives and joys of some of the lost men and women in Iraq to try to put a touch of humanity behind the 2000 lives lost. But, why isn't the Pakistan earthquake motivating me? Is it just "one more thing too many?"
- I learned that my son thinks I'm faking illness for some reason... that nothing is really wrong with me. I'll give him the benefit of a doubt, perhaps the thought that my life might be in danger is the "one more thing too many" that he can deal with.
- I learned that he can bald-face lie better than anyone else I know.
- I learned that genes make a bigger difference in my quality of life than income, boyfriends, job and location.
- I learned that I really don't like getting up at 4 am anymore and that I don't like myself when I can barely function for lack of sleep.
Maybe next week won't be so grim... or maybe I need to talk to the doctor about changing to newer, better happy pills?