Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Pain Rehabilitation Clinic

Well, first day is almost done. I've spent more time than I'd like sitting around and waiting for the nurse to find time to talk to me. Hopefully future days aren't this quiet - well, if they are I can always bring my laptop with me to the office and sit and work I guess while I'm waiting. I'm frustrated since I've put my life on hold and have spent over three hours today watching news reports about Anna Nicole Smith's trial to determine who gets custody of her body.

It does seem promising though, and even though I'm pretty intimidated about starting aerobic activity - they seem to understand that they can't push you so hard that you quit... so at least when I start to get pushed it will be within reason. So, still feeling a bit helpful and struggling to NOT be cynical.

I managed a trip to IKEA last night - woohoo! Didn't think I had bought a lot, but it was still over $150... but then again, I bought a lot of stuff for both my boys. So, I figure it all well spent.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

What Number Are You?

You Are 5: The Investigator

You're independent - and a logical analytical thinker.

You love learning and ideas... and know things no one else does.

Bored by small talk, you refuse to participate in boring conversations.

You are open minded. A visionary. You understand the world and may change it.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Too funny - Environment does tell, doesn't it!

You Belong in the USA

People either love you or hate you
And you really don't care what anyone thinks
Big and bold, you do things your way

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Still struggling

Am depressed as ever, am afraid I've put too much hope into the pain management clinic and now I don't want to go as I just know that I'll be dissapointed and what a waste of three weeks of my life. Of course, if I don't go, I'll be back to being virtually bed-ridden which means my life sucks anyway.

Once I finally get this bankruptcy thing cleared up I do have plans. I have plans to hire a housekeeper and to join a gym -- not to do the working out like crazy thingee... but so I can take a Pilates and Tai Chi course and then veg out in the whirlpool afterwards. Between the two, it should cost around $250/month and I can't afford it unless I file for bankruptcy. But I do think that having a cleaner house will improve my mood and that I only have so much energy that I can expend.. and house cleaning takes more than I have and I hate... hate... hate the mess. I cannot keep up with "a" as he makes messes every five minutes.

At least that's the plan...

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

On little "a" growing up a bit

I've been trying to tell "a" for over a month now that my name is actually "Penny" but he and "A" get to call me mommy. And he keeps telling me, "No, you're name is MOMMY!" where that last part is usually yelled quite loudly. He also doesn't seem to believe that I'm also "A"s mommy - as apparantly I belong solely to him.

Yesterday afternoon, I layed down for a little while from extreme exhaustion (as he's been up sick half the night every other night) - and the phone rang. I've come to ignore it as 90% of the time it's a bill collector and I don't have all my paperwork in order yet to file for bankruptcy... and he answers it. He comes down the hall trailing the phone in his wake - asking - with a quiet and quite serious tone "Are you Penny?" .... oh, it was sooooo cute.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Back to the starting point

Well, thanks to the nora virus - I am back down to 149 which is where I left my scale when I stopped trying to lose weight and was too stubborn to take it down.

I've got two weeks to go before my 3-wk trip to the Pain Management Clinic in Rochester. I need to get ready and get a ton of work done besides... and am still feeling a bit ... woozy for lack of a better term. I just seem to get dizzy every time I move right now. I've been taking my meclizine which does help with the dizziness... but not as well as I would like.

I've been to a new internist here in Des Moines, and lo and behold, he says I'm anemic. I've been begging doctors to test me for anemia for about two years - since I was mildly anemic after "A" was born... and while I'm on my thinners, menstral cycles are a horrible experience. He also thinks I'm really, really low in potassium... so I've got two new supplements to add to my vitamin regime.

Add three weeks of intensive physical and emotional therapy and who knows. I might actually become a functioning human being again. I've got my hopes up (hopefully not by too much) and am hoping to sign up for a gym membership where they have Pilates and Yoga (and maybe Tai Chi) classes and a whirlpool. There's one in Clive but the good news is that it has free daycare from 4pm - 7pm every evening... so I don't have to figure out how to keep "a" occupied and safe. They've got an indoor kids climbing gym - not sure if it's in the daycare area or not, but if it is, that would be awesome. We can both get some exercise and then come home for dinner, a bath, and who knows.... maybe I won't be heading to bed at 8:30 pm every night? I can hope, right?

Better go, can't put off taking the trash out any longer. Here's to hope.