Friday, March 28, 2008

Personality Cluster




Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking



You are:



Objective, honest, and credible

Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests

More inclined toward ideas than people

Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional

Tag - you're it --- from Phil

Two names you go by:
1) Penny 2) Everything but Penny - I don't think I mumble my name, but its rare that people seem to 'hear' it

Two things you are wearing right now:
1. purple sweats 2. purple spaghetti strap top

Top Two of your favorite things to do:
1. catch up on emails & blogs 2. Knitting

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1. chocolate 2. More pain killers (owie... and I've got another hour to go... well, I'll probably take one now anyway).

Two favorite pets you have had/have now
1. Junior (cat currently hogging my lap 2. Chief (miss my dog!)

Two people who will most likely fill this out:
1. None 2. And none

Two things you did last night:
1. Slept 2) Watched some tv

Two things you ate today:
1. Pizza 2. Crackers

Two people you last talked to:
1. "A" 2. Nurses from the Orthopedists

Two things you're doing tomorrow:
1. Sleeping 2. taking pain killers

Two longest car rides:
1. Cedar Rapids to Colorado Springs (10 hours) 2. Hale Ia to Leech Lake MN (12 hours)

Two favorite holidays:
1. Christmas 2. Thanksgiving

Two favorite vacations:
1. Paris 2. Bahamas

Two favorite beverages:
1. Pepsi 2. Baileys & Buttershots or Surfer on Acid (Malibu, Pineapple and Jagermeister - equal parts) - Phil got me hooked on it! But, I gotta be in the right mood, else I'm drinking all night on the latter.

Surgery done

Went well.

Still sore today, but, that's to be expected.

They did the reconstruction of the ACl tendon. But, I guess, once they got in there, that the other two tendons that they thought had small tears that they had to mend, didn't they were just 'stretched' out.

But, they did find bone fragments... that they picked out. Don't know from what 'bone' or if there are rough edges to worry about or anything - but I wasn't 'with it' enough yesterday to ask.

I see the Orthopedist on Monday for the follow up, so I'll ask him then what it was about.

I've been able to start putting a little weight on my leg already, but am happier to keep it up, with ice on it. And am thankful for the pain killers. I slept most of yesterday, but once the injectable pain killers wore off, I was up most of the rest of the night every other hour when the Tylenol 3 would wear off. I talked to the nurse today, and they wrote me up a Darvacet prescription, so while that isn't quite as strong, it lasts longer. So, I can take one of each, and will sleep better tonight.

In the meantime, ice is my best friend.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Stress level getting a little lower

Got some good news - the car repair is under warranty! Woohoo! and Thank God it happened now instead of 2000 miles later. Problem is they're waiting for the part (central differential) from LA, so it'll be later next week before we'll get it back. We should know if the parts in by Tuesday, so if it's not, I've got to ask someone to drive me to and from surgery - ok, I could do taxi, but that REALLY isn't the right time to do taxi's.

I spent Sunday & part of Monday and did some damage control (15 minutes at a time). The kitchen and both bathrooms were clean, and the living room was ready to be vacuumed... only by Tuesday - "A" had destroyed the kitchen and "a" had re-destroyed the living room. But, it felt good knowing I could do something even if it was on crutches. I'm frustrated that they aren't helping me 'keep' it clean.... but that's part of living with kids I guess. Doesn't mean I can't be grumpy about it and nag them about it either though.

Am working on next week's menu planning (not that this week worked out great - sort of lasted two weeks). As a friend (THANK YOU) has offered to pick up a few groceries. I haven't told her yet that I'm going to take her up on it... so, guess I better do that!

Will be super happy to have this surgery done and over with and be back on my feet!

Monday, March 17, 2008

$2500 - Thanks Carl!!!

Thank god my step-father has some money. I just had to bite the bullet and call him to ask him for some. The insurance company states that since the entire cost of the prescription at ($2500 for less than two weeks); is greater than the amount remaining in the coverage account, and more than would be required of my deductable, and then would hit three separate calculations (they cover 100% of the first X amount, My deductable is 100% of the cost to the next X amount, then they pay 80% of the next X amount); that what they do is require that I pay ALL of it, and then they'll re-imburse me the remaining amount. UGH

So, I called my step-father and said, Hi, how are you. I hate to call you to ask for money, but that's what I'm doing. He said he could help. But this still sucks. I hate asking for help. But, I truly have no other choice. I can't afford the medicine, I can't afford to not take the medicine, and I can't afford to not have the surgery. At least I can pay him back some of it when I get the re-imbursement from the insurance company. But, this totally sucks.

Not so depressed today

Yesterday I managed to get the kitchen and two bathrooms cleaned... and a corner of the living room picked up. My knee was killing me by bed time, but eh, at least I got stuff done.

AND I feel a lot less depressed today. "A" came home last night and then went out again until late. A friend came and picked him up in Ames, drove him out to the girl he was trying to meet... and then brought him home. Then they went to work out. And who knows what else. UGH.

Today, I've barely spoken to him. He had to get up early as he got called into work. I'm so angry with him that I can't talk to him about it yet. Only good news is that I'm still at the 68K miles on the odometer with a 79K warranty. God, I hope whatever is wrong is under warranty. Otherwise I'm back to the other options. We'll see.

I just figured out last night that the cost of the shots I'm going to have to take are going to only partially be covered by insurance. I've got awesome insurance, however, it just so happens to hit wrong this time around. I'm thinking that I'm going to end up paying about $1500 for it - and I need the money by Wednesday, and I don't have it. I'm going to call the pharmacy to verify and have them run it, if I'm wrong, that would be AWESOME! However, if I'm not. I'm thinking I'm going to have to call my step-father and ask for the money. If I don't take the shots it's extremely likely I'll clot again, and I can't afford to take the chance that I wouldn't survive this time. As it is, knee surgery is very high risk for clotting even without clotting disorders. No good news there.

We made the tex-mex pasta last night. It was edible... it was ok. It wasn't great. We've got leftovers to eat today, I think I'm going to add tomato sauce when I reheat it for lunch and spice it up a little more. It was just a bit too blah for me. If I'd had salsa (I'm out), I would have added it. It would have been better that way.

"a" refused to even try it at first. About twenty minutes later he polished off what I couldn't finish from my plate and then cleaned off his plate. He decided it was very yummy after all.

I did try the new method of cooking up 3 lbs of hamburger at once... and so we've started the next two meals then already. One's in the fridge, the other in the freezer. But, it really only took about five more minutes to brown 3 lbs than 1 lb. So, it really is a time-saver. I've done similar things in the past, but not so much as part of a PLAN, more as just a saving on bulk purchase. So, now I'm going to try to PLAN to save time and money better.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Between a Rock and Hard place

Last week "A" had an absolute fit and refused to drive "a" and I to "a"s class at the YMCA. I ended up paying $12 for a taxi. He refused because he hadn't slept the night before - he was worried that he'd oversleep when he needed to be up at 5:00 am for work. I understand that he felt that "a"s class wasn't 'important' enough to bother given how tired he was. I do get that. But, "a" has been stuck in the house with an immobile mom for two weeks now. He needs the opportunity to get out, to run and play with other kids - he's got serious cabin fever.

It was IMPORTANT to me that he go, and I tried to explain that to "A". All I got was rude behavior and him locking himself into another room to avoid me.

The next day I told him that his behavior was unacceptable, it didn't matter whether he thought it was important or not... being rude and leaving me high and dry when "a" had a class was not acceptable since he'd known about the class for over a week, and it wasn't our decision that he stay out over night. He disagreed. I told him that he needed to find a new place to live in 30 days. At that point, he had done little to no dishes, not taking the garbage out, not doing laundry, not picking up after "a" - and making messes of his own. If he's not going to be helping me out when I'm hard up and unable to do it myself, what good is he. He's done a little better since. He's been picking up after himself, done about 3 loads of dishes, done two loads of laundry - still not taking out the garbage, and "a" the little mess-making machine has basically trashed the apartment.

But, "A" is my only ride. He's been taking me to my doctor's appts. He picks up groceries for me. And he's been cooking 'some' of the meals. Maybe every other night. When I'm laying in bed, he'll bring me beverages and food and take my dishes back into the kitchen when I'm done. Things I really can't do for myself easily.

But then, last night happened. He was supposed to be going to the HyVee south of here - the one we rarely go to... it's got a special on Pepsi -- which he drinks like it's going out of style. Seriously, I drink ONE CAN A DAY; and we go through a twelve-pack every THREE DAYS! That's A LOT OF PEPSI. I get a call about the time I'm wondering why he's not home yet.

THE CAR BROKE DOWN - AGAIN! HE ISN'T WHERE HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE - AGAIN! HE'S ON THE HIGHWAY TRYING TO VISIT A GIRL HE MET ONLINE - AGAIN! SHE LIVES IN A COUNTY THAT HE'S BEEN ORDERED TO NOT GO TO BY PAROLE OFFICER - AGAIN!

I CAN'T AFFORD ANOTHER CAR REPAIR BILL! I CAN'T AFFORD ANOTHER RENTAL CAR! HELL, AS IT IS I WAS HOPING TO BORROW MONEY TO PAY FOR THE PORTION OF THE DRUG I NEED FOR SURGERY THAT ISN'T COVERED BY INSURANCE. I didn't know where I was going to borrow the money. My credit score is at an all-time low! My insurance is actually awesome, but the timing for this super-expensive drug is at an all-time bad timing. I'm probably going to need around $1500 for the drug that I have to take for the surgery. Good news is that after that, everything will be covered by insurance at 80%; it's just that this drug happens to fall into a timing where I have to pay 100%; only good part of it, is that it maxes out the 100% my pay portion, and gets into the 80%; but even then.... paying 100% of the first $1000, plus 20% of the remainder, is timed at an impossible point in time for my budget. I've got NO money. The only reason I'm not overdrawn at the bank, is because they do have an inexpensive alternative to the payday cash advance... I had to borrow $300 to cover bills last week. And it's another two weeks until payday. Add a $500 garnishment every payday; daycare I have to pay for that we're not using... and a mountain of bills... and I'm basically at the end of my rope.

"A" is still out of town. He knows a few people in the area, and said he'd figure out a place to stay last night. Paid to get the car towed to the closest dealership... Guess we'll figure out on Monday exactly what's wrong with the car. I don't know how to get him home. I don't know what to do anymore! He doesn't know how he's going to get home. I don't have a way to get him home. He's supposed to work again today - but that's obviously not going to happen.

If it's bad enough... I'm going to try to convince the dealership to work with me. I know I don't have any 'credit' to get a new car with. But, the value on the SUV was around $13K without the latest breakdown. Even though I owe $16K on it!!! sob

I've only got two options that I can forsee... a) get them to agree to fix it and bill me later - ha! ha! b) sell them the car or 'trade-it-in' for a used car that's maybe not as reliable (but not a clutch, so I can drive). But, then I owe the auto finance company the difference. Which I can't pay. Big surprise. But, then I'm thinking that I'm reaching the end of my creativity... and bargaining skills. I'm thinking that I'm going to have to break down and file bankruptcy. I've put it off for two years, but I'm not sure how I would be able to postpone it anymore if I had yet another $3K debt to pay for that I can't pay for on top of the medical bills that I haven't received yet for my knee surgery.

I do have some furniture of value - not out of this world value, but some money... I can start selling it and some of the silver, dishes my grandmother left me.

Last night - I cried, and cried... and then I had a very sleepless night. At one point, I considered skipping the medicine I need for surgery. But, I'm completely aware that skipping it when I have two clotting disorders, history of PE & Stroke AND having knee surgery which on it's own is VERY HIGH RISK for clotting... that I just might be risking my life by not taking the meds. Last night, I figured that the risk might be worth it, after all... if I pass away my life insurance would straighten out my debt mess. Then again, I've probably got enough drugs around the house that if I wanted to take my life, I could.

Today, I'm more rational. Today, I'm back to being a survivor. Today, I'm going to figure out a way to use my wheeled office chair, the grabbit thing and figure out how to clean paths through my house. I've had it. I'm tired of being dependent on someone incapable of being responsible.

There are things I can do to start saving money. I can't terminate the cell phone, we're under contract. I can terminate the cable and DVR, although it will hurt. I can terminate the free long distance with medicom phone.... I'm supposed to get a blackberry at work - which I could use for the conference calls when I work from home -- which right now is really the only reason I use the home phone. The free long distance was a bonus -- it's cheaper to have phone service with mediacom than with the regular phone service without long distance. I can't terminate the internet, I need it for work. I can reduce my cell phone coverage.... and start monitoring "A"s use of it... cutting him off when it gets too high; but for the fact he does use it for work... ugh, forgot about that. Well, I could still cut him off when he's a couple of hundred minutes close to the limit; and then I'll take the phone and only answer if it's work.

So, basically, a great-big-long rant about how horrible life is and how desparately I hate the fact that I'm dependent on "A" for everything - yet he sucks at doing 90% of it - and he's still screwing me over. IT ALL SUCKS!

But, I am a survivor - I will start cleaning. Thanks to flylady, I'll work for 15 minutes, rest for 15 minutes; I'll do what I can and I should see an improvement. I may end up taking more pain meds because I'll probably screw my leg up a little more, but eh, I haven't had to take that many pain meds so far because I've been so good about keeping it up and keeping it in the splint... Like they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Kind of sick of having to be so strong. But, that's life.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Latest Knee info - although probably TMI

Although anyone who reads this probably is used to TMI from me.

Official word is that I tore the ACL tendon into to pieces, and have less serious tears on the both of the other tendons. Even if the ACL tear was less, they don't tend to have good luck 'mending' them. So, I'm going to have whats called an ACL reconstruction. Apparently, they take a tendon from your shin that you can walk without; but to ensure it 'fuses' properly, they also take a segment of the bone from each end - so its one piece and the places where it's attached to the bone remain intact. Then using long screws they attach this tendon in the places where the ACL used to be. I assume they do some 'digging' out of the bone where the new bits are placed, according to the web site I checked out, it appears so. Once the bones fuse together, they could remove the screws if there's issues with them. The other two tendons can get 'sewed' together to see if they mend on their own. (we hope).

The freaky thing is that if I'm not wearing the 'immobilizer' (think leg brace)... if I try to move my leg or turn my leg; the bone in the front - I'll call it the shin bone for lack of knowledge... the top part is no longer secured well, so it moves freely - painfully freely. If I attempt to put any weight whatsover on this leg (by accident or to try to stop from falling) even with the immobilizer on, the knee totally folds (or caves)... so we try not to do that either.

Surgery for the knee is scheduled for the 27th. In part because they want the swelling down. In part because they need to switch me to new blood thinners so that the current medicine is out of my system ... one thing you WANT when you have surgery is to clot. So anti-clotting meds that stay in your system too long is BAD. The new meds only last about 12 hours instead of five days, so if I take the last dose the day before surgery and none the day of surgery, it should be safer. There are issues however. Good news is I have awesome insurance, bad news is this stuff is INCREDIBLY expensive. I haven't talked to the pharmacy directly about it yet, but the usual cost of this is between $300 to $350 per DAY.... yes. PER DAY. I need a week before surgery, and at minimum 5 days after surgery, if NOT LONGER. ugh. Second negative? It's injection only. Which means I have to inject it myself. I have to admit, I've lost a LOT of my needle phobia over the past three years with all these million blood tests. But, I'm not sure I'm quite ready to do it myself just yet. I already asked "A" if he thought he could help - HAHA. He's even more needle-phobic than I ever was. He doesn't want to be in the apartment when I do it! He doesn't think he can handle being in the next room if he knows what I'm doing.

The good news is that I've met a lot of people online who have to do this all the time. So I've gotten good hints on how to make it hurt less. By hurt less, I'm not talking about the poke. I'm talking about the horrible burning sensation that lasts over an hour after each one of these injections. Reducing the horrible bruising and swelling that comes from these injections. Oh, joy! But I am armed to the teeth with suggestions, so I'm as prepared as I can be.

I did hint to my Internist that I was looking towards doing a hysterectomy; and wanted some advice. I was wary of even asking if I could do it shortly after the knee surgery in hopes of not having to go through this process of doing the shots a second time... but he squished that thought before I had it out. He wants to wait at minimum three months after knee surgery before having the other. He'll want to do another pre-surgery physical then... and then I can ask him about taking one ovary or two. He already admitted he doesn't know much about gyno issues - not sure he knows much about menopause symptoms either. So, we'll see.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Swiss chicken (ish)

OK, so "A" doesn't know what stuffing is or where to buy it at the store.... LOL

Honestly, he's never liked it when he's been offered it (repeatedly), so I'm not terribly surprised. But that means that we didn't top the chicken with the stuffing. Ah, well.

Secondly, instead of buying frozen breasts (which would have supplied, around 6 or more breasts... plenty for the second chicken meal); he bought fresh - which, admittedly were yummy and plump. But, it means no left overs for the Chicken Chili. oh, well. The chicken was yummy - and I surprised "A" with dinner ready when he got home from work. Hoping to lay in a few hints on how to handle that so that when I get back to working in the office again, maybe there might be some meals on the table when I get home from work (since he's usually home before I am).

Cooking while on crutches is amazingly not that bad. I've got a VERY small kitchen which means that most everything I need is in reach. And most of the time, you're mixing or stirring, or whatever while standing still. Standing still I can do... but my good leg gets tired having to stand for very long with all the weight on it. But, I picked out easy meals intentionally that were throw-together style.

The biggest challenge is fetching things from my storage area and carrying it to the kitchen. I have NO clue how to carry things with crutches! I got creative and crafted up a small pocket apron that lets me carry small items... and that worked well to fetch out the cream of chicken soup can and green beans out of the storage closet to prepare dinner tonight. It's working very well for me... I'll try to post it and my 'ideas' on my knitting blog... as soon as I can find the camera! "A" swiped it from me about five minutes after I got home from skiing, and I haven't seen it since... my punishment for taking it with me on vacation - LOL!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Meal planning?

I'm not much of a meal planner... mostly it's about a handful of recipes that work really well with both children and are 20-minute easy meals. Add a couple of frozen dinners, leftovers once a week, and some canned soup other meals, and I pretty much got things wrapped up. HOWEVER, this is getting old. I like trying new recipes... but don't really like to push the envelope too much with picky eater "A".

Usually I can do a pretty good job of grabbing enough for several meals when I hit the grocery store, even if they're not 'planned'.

But, with "A" shopping for me, things are getting to slim pickings. And since "A" is also doing the majority of the cooking, well, I don't want ANY MORE pizza. I'm pizza'd out.

So, if I come up with a meal plan for the week; with recipes and grocery list, I think that I can sell it with the "A"-man.

So, here's my start:

Monday 3/10 - Frozen Lasagna (thank you work-friends who picked them up!!).

Tuesday 3/11 - Menus 4 Moms recipe Swiss Chicken & Green Beans

1. For quicker prep time in the afternoon, Swiss Chicken can be prepared in the morning and refrigerated until time to bake.

* 6 boneless chicken breasts (raw)
* 6 slices Swiss cheese
* 1 can cream of chicken soup (substitutions)
* 1/4 cup white cooking wine (substitutes)
* 1 cup stuffing mix
* 1/4 cup melted butter

Place chicken breasts in a baking dish. Cover each with cheese. Mix soup and wine; pour over chicken. Cover with stuffing. Drizzle 1/4 cup butter over stuffing. Bake 40-45 minutes at 350°.

Wednesday 3/12 -
Menus 4 Moms recipe Tex-Mex Pasta Skillet


* 8 oz. spiral pasta (whole wheat if you can find it)
* 1 lb. ground beef , cooked (from freezer)
* 1 can corn, drained
* 1 can diced tomatoes, with juice
* 1 cup shredded cheddar cheese
* 2 Tbsp. parsley
* 1 tsp. salt

Cook pasta according to directions. Do not overcook, leave slightly firm. While pasta is cooking, combine remaining ingredients except cheese in a large saucepan. Stir gently over medium heat until heated through. Drain pasta. Add cheese and pasta to skillet, mix thoroughly, and serve warm.

Thursday - 3/13 - Cheeseburger Soup

* 1 lb. ground beef
* 3/4 C. chopped onion
* 3/4 C. shredded carrots
* 3/4 C. diced celery
* 3 T. butter or oil
* 3 C. chicken broth
* 4 C. diced potatoes
* 1/4 C. flour
* 8 oz. Velveeta cheese
* 1 1/2 C. milk
* 1 t. basil
* 1/4 C. sour cream
* salt and pepper

In a stock pot, brown beef, drain, rinse with hot water, and set aside. Saute onion, carrots, celery and basil in same pan about 5 minutes. Stir in flour and add broth, potatoes and beef. Cover, reduce heat and simmer until potatoes are tender, about 15 minutes. Add cheese, milk, salt and pepper. Cook and stir until cheese melts. Remove from heat and blend in sour cream. Serve.

Friday 3/14 - Guess, I can survive frozen pizza - boys love it...

Saturday 3/15 - Crockpot White Chicken Chili & cornbread

* 4 chicken breasts, cubed (from freezer)
* 1 cup chopped onion, cooked (from freezer)
* 2 cloves garlic, finely chopped
* 1 1/2 cups chicken broth
* 1 tsp ground cumin
* 1 tsp dried leaf oregano
* 1/2 tsp salt
* 1/4 tsp Tabasco sauce
* 2 cans (about 15 ounces each) great northern beans, drained, rinsed
* 1 can (12 to 15 oz.) corn, drained
* 2 Tbsp. chopped fresh cilantro, optional

Mix onion, garlic, chicken broth, cumin, oregano, salt and Tabasco in 3 1/2 to 6-quart crockpot. Add cubed chicken breasts. Cover and cook on low for 4 1/2 to 5 1/2 hours, or until chicken is tender (this may vary depending on how hot your crockpot cooks). Stir in beans, corn, and cilantro, if using. Cover and cook on low 30 minutes or until thoroughly heated.

Sunday - 3/16 -- Baked Penne Pasta

* 2 Tbsp. Olive Oil
* 1 lb. ground beef, browned (from Monday or from freezer)
* 3 cloves garlic, minced
* 3/4 cup spaghetti sauce
3/4 cup brown gravy
* 1/2 cup half and half
* 1/4 cup Parmesan cheese
* 1 tsp. oregano
* 1/2 tsp. rosemary
* salt and pepper to taste
* 12 oz. penne pasta, cooked
* 1 cup Mozzarella cheese, shredded

Reheat beef. In a large fry pan, saute garlic over low heat 1-2 minutes. Add all remaining ingredients except Mozzarella cheese and pasta. Simmer for 10 minutes. Add pasta and pour into a baking dish. Sprinkle Mozzarella cheese on top. Bake at 350°F for 25 minutes.

Now, most of these meals have more ingedients than most of my regulars (anything over 5 is a lot for me)... but I'm thinking we can handle it. Secondly, I'm going to try to figure out which ones I anticipate will go over better, and double-up the recipe when I get the grocery list together for it, as I want to try to make one and prepare one to freeze, for next week... for at least two of these meals. Then, next week, If I continue to do the same, I have fewer meals to 'come up with', plus maybe by next week, one of my old standby's will sound good again. The site I found some of these on recommends that you make actually 3 meals when preparing the first one. Freeze the other two - one for the following week, and the third for the week after... but since these are untried menus, I'm going to take it a little slower than that.

Oh, and another time saver (?) is to take the week's menus, and the first time you serve something with browned ground beef - you cook up all the ground beef for the week, and freeze some of it. If you're making chicken for more than two meals, and the second meal is better if the chicken is pre-cooked, cook it while you're prepping the first meal with chicken. If you're chopping onions, chop enough for the whole week & freeze the remaining ingredients in the sizes needed. This may be a bit too much for "A", but if I think through it, it would probably help me out a LOT. Back when I was cooking for five/six people... I used to prepare tacos once a week either on Tuesday/Wednesday night. Then I'd use one of those tupperware party dishes to capture various toppings - chopped onions, tomatoes, peppers, cheese, etc... and then I'd use those throughout the week for salad toppings. Things would be needing to be used up by the end of the week - and omelets could pretty much finish off whatever was left. Now that it's just the three of us - and "A" won't touch most of that stuff, and I can't have salad, well, this just doesn't work for us any more. Need to think up maybe other things those toppings could be used for throughout the week and maybe I can find a way to adapt to our current situation.

Feeling really old

As a joke, I had bought a co-worker a 'grab-it' or 'gopher' tool... you know, it's on tv, as being able to 'extend your reach'.... her desk is about four feet from the printer, however, there's a short wall between us and the printer; which requires a walk to the opposite end of the cubes we're in and around the wall and back - about 40-feet in each direction. Unfortunately, it's not quite long enough to pull a printout from a printer four feet away. Need a couple of more feet of 'reach'.

But, she brought it to my house today to help me with my difficulty reaching the ground... with a leg in a splint.

And, I broke down and bought a shower chair - for the shower. Much safer, but makes me feel 80.

Friday, March 07, 2008

Sending "A" out for medical equipment

OK, I'm an idiot. I don't like taking baths, unless I'm already clean. I like showers! I LOVE a hot shower!

But, here's the idiot part. Why would I assume I can take a shower, standing & hopping on one leg? Slippery tub, soap & shampoo & the complete inability to use my left leg at all? That's a dangerous situation.

Poor "A" is going to have to go shopping for a bathtub seat for me so I can sit in the shower & still get clean so that I don't break my neck the next time I take a shower.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

A different view of life

Life on crutches is a bit different ...

Am a bit wobbly still, especially on steps. Railings are a GOD SEND... if the railing is on my good side, I can use it to balance myself, and only use a crutch on my left side.

The slightest slope, can affect your balance - who knew?

Narrow hallways - ugh! Time to get rid of the stack of boxes in my hallway of the results of my closet purging.

How the h*ll do you carry - anything??? Basically I have a tote filled with the various things I want to have with me, like my billfold, cell phone, remote access key fob, knitting; and I make "a" carry it for me from room to room.

In & out of the car? lol! I put my but in first, scoot back as far as I can & then I have to lift my leg (straight) up & into the corner of the door, up & over the front seat ( a 180 degree turn ) & lower it down onto the center console. Good thing it's too cold for skirts or I'd be flashing half the city.

Picking things up from the floor??? LOL -- I can kind of do it... use one crutch on the left side, swing my bad leg straight out behind me, bend my right knee & be VERY careful not to lose my balance.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Well, I thought I learned to ski this weekend...

until I blew out my knee on my second run down a green run on Cooper Mountain.

I still had a blast, and skiing was really fun. I felt really comfortable on the bunny mountain, although I was really struggling with turning to the right. Decided on day 2 that I could try the green runs and see if that would make the turns easier, since you do so many more turns on a long run than short runs... made it all the way down the first time and only fell once (well, ok, I fell also when getting off the ski lift, but I fell every time I tried to get off a ski lift... so I'm not counting that). Second time down though I must have been too tired... I fell three times on the way down... go to about the easiest part of the run (bottom 1/4) easy slope, only slightly steeper than the bunny hill. But, this time, I fell while doing a right turn as my weight was on my left leg, but my right ski 'stuck' on sticky snow (it was all melting since it was 40 degrees). as I started to go into doing the splits; I felt something pop in my left knee - and I dropped instantly. I blew out the main tendon on the inside of the knee and possibly one or two of the inside tendons. It's going to need surgery. Oh, joy!

I go today to get an MRI to see how bad the damage is, but they're calling it a very serious injury without even looking at the MRI at this point. UGH! But, I can be a good girl and listen to the doctors and follow instructions. Hopefully, we can schedule the surgery quickly and start the recovery period.

UNFORTUNATELY! I can't drive & I'm stuck in Des Moines, means I'll miss visiting with friends this weekend... I'm so bummed!